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10 Mesmerizing Buildings of Lahore.

Lahore is the capital of the Pakistani province of Punjab and the second largest and metropolitan city in the country. It is the largest native Punjabi-populated city in the world and an important historical centre of South Asia. With a rich history dating back over a millennium, Lahore is a main cultural centre of Punjab and Pakistan. Below is the list of 10 mesmerizing buildings of Lahore.

Lahore Fort.
Lahore Museum.
Badshahi Mosque.
Government College.
Wazir Khan Mosque.
Jinnah Library.
Cricket Club Bagh-e-Jinnah.
Railway Station.
Minar-e- Pakistan.
National Collage of Arts.

Next time I go to Pakistan, I would like to visit all of these places.

(via a-pakistaniaffair)

pardon the paindu, but…

this post may contain a lot of urdu! 

and also, bare with me while i rant. you know something that i find absolutely zeher? ke jab koi kissi ko acha kahe yah phir compliment de, aur uske liye wo “chamcha” ban jaye.

why, why can’t i just say something nice or be nice to someone, without being labelled a suck-up? is it so hard to imagine that when one is giving a compliment that it is not with some ulterior motive in mind, but because they want to be nice?

anyway, it just really annoys me sometimes

and that is all. 

good night!

-k

these sheets,

bathed in my tears tonight,

the soars,

left underneath my eyes,

the blur of the world,

and the start of the rain,

coincide on my face tonight,

making rivers and streams down contours,

pushing past and forward and further down still,

this salted water,

going further down,

to bathe once more,

my sheets tonight,

this tenuous connect between water and sheet,

this finite stain left in existence,

all these are marks where sadness sets sail,

all these are marks of night time devastation,

all these are marks of a warring heart.  

so ramzan has begun and once again, Allah has blessed us all with the opportunity to be around for all the blessings it brings. and with ramzan came the beginning of my summer job as well! i thought for sure this summer i wasn’t going to get anything, but of course i continued to apply, albeit half-heartedly, and lo and behold, it happened! 

and in hindsight, it could not have happened at a better time….because this way i got to spend all the beginning of the summer enjoying myself at home and now during ramzan i have something to distract me from being hungry and stuff! so alhumdulillah everything worked out! 

i love experiencing the moment when you realize that God really did have a better plan for you. because no matter how long it takes, you can be sure that if your immediate prayers arenn’t answered, nor wishes granted, then there’s a reason for it. 

but anyway, aside from that, with ramzan of course, comes also the iftaris! we had the first one at our house on the first rosa of the month and now we’re spending the rest of the month going to a whole bunch of others! which is awesome. it’s great that we get to see family and friends so much more in ramzan and in an atmosphere of mutual ibadah just makes it all the better. 

and after ramzan the month of august is JAM PACKED! with what, you may ask? WEDDINGS. 

THAT’S RIGHT! W E D D I N G S! 

this august there’s not 1,

not 2,

not 3,

not 4,

but FIVE different weddings that are happening! unfortunately it looks like i won’t be able to go to one of them, but still 4 weddings are already a crazy amount!

but to be honest, there’s one that shines out as the most important one. and it’s the wedding of (the person who i consider to be) my best friend. she’s getting married this year - and i know i’ve mentioned this here before but let’s be real, i’m not going to stop mentioning it at least until the wedding is over….and maybe not even after then :p

and other than that, one of my other REALLY CLOSE friends is also getting married! hers was supposed to be in december, but is now switched to august which is amazing! so much dressing up to do this summer, it’s ridiculous!

AND OF COURSE, between the weddings and the rest of ramzan is my favourite holiday: EID-UL-FITR :)

inshallah this eid we will have the family over and at the end of the night we hope to do fireworks (for the first time ever!)! HOPEFULLY it won’t rain on eid. 

and i guess that’s all i’ve got….this post is just really an update on how my life is coming along. although with all this excitement coming just from this summer, i’m afraid everything afterwards won’t be so exciting anymore! but it should be because this september, i will be starting my LAST year in university (it’s taken me LONG ENOUGH - i know) INSHALLAH! so that’s really exciting. 

and at first i thought (and sometimes still think) that i won’t go to my convocation, but the more i think about it the more i realize….it’s a once in MY lifetime sort of thing! i know i’ll regret not going - so most likely i’ll go! and also, i realize i want to go because i have a sincerely great appreciation for my school. it wasn’t the place i started out in, but honestly, i love it very much. and so i’ll go, because not going would be an insult to this great institution that educated (or tried to educate) me. 

but anyway, convocation is still a far away thought. i shouldn’t count my eggs before they hatch, as the saying goes, haha! i mean, who knows [WARNING: morbid thought coming up] if i’ll even live to see the day! there’s really no guarantee of life, but we plan and plan and plan as if we’re invincible and will continue to live on and see our plans come to life. 

and on that note, i’m going to end my post :) this has been a good dumping of my general mindset/mood/thoughts these days! 

much love!

-komal :)

in the heat of these days, it’s hard to imagine that earlier this year we had an ice storm worse than i have ever seen before! it’s even hard to recall how in the WORLD we survived those FIVE FULL DAYS in our house without electricity! 

at the time it was the biggest thing happening in our life. but just like with everything else, as time moved forward, other things took place of that one event and now…as i look back at the pictures, all i can really remember is the amazing beauty that the storm brought with it! 

isn’t that crazy?! what yesterday was the very main crisis of mine and my family’s existence, today i just look at and think of the beauty of nature from it! 

time is the greatest magician of all. let yourself be wowed by it…..time will not disappoint. 

i’m probably overthinking this/being self-centered/whatever, but has anyone else ever felt that sometimes people treat you very…..cautiously! 

what do i mean? i mean, sometimes (not always, not even often, just occasionally) i just feel really aware of this nagging feeling that tells me that people around me are treating me as if i’m breakable. as if they can say anything to anyone, but they have to choose their words carefully around me. because what if they say something that might hurt or offend me…..as if they’re scared of my opinions, almost! 

and i’ve gotta say, it is one of the most annoying feelings in the world! when i feel like this is happening, i just want to yell at them and tell them that i’m not some nazuk si bachi! i am a grown woman and i can take it! i can take whatever they want to say to me that they’re not saying because they feel like they’ll break me! 

and i know it’s odd to think that anyone would think that way, but i just have this feeling that i cannot PUSH away sometimes. 

but like i said, it’s probably just my own paranoia. i mean, why would anyone ever have any reason to treat me differently than anyone else….

i don’t understand people who go visit beautiful places on earth and then document those times on facebook….with pictures of FOOD. i mean, i get it, you’re a food enthusiast/foodie whatever, but if you’re going to frigging EUROPE there’s more to see than just food. 

and at first when i saw the pictures i was just like, okay fine…this person is probably just really excited about the food. but after going through their whole euro-trip album and finding only FOOD pictures….i think this is developing into a pet peeve of mine. 

like…really, in all of europe, the only thing worth taking pictures of and displaying on facebook is their FOOD?! 

GTFO of europe! 

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also, disclaimer: i’m a jerk -_-

although vacuuming is the bane of my existence, there is just a feeling of complete satisfaction when you walk into a carpeted room and see vacuum marks from having been recently cleaned that you honestly can’t get any other way. 

OR that feeling when you hear the crnch crnch as some crap gets sucked up WHILE you’re vacuuming. omg. that feeling. 

this summer i wanted to stay relatively the same colour as i normally am in the winter….but these past three days i’ve been swimming every single day (and i’ll probably continue to do so as long as the weather remains nice) and so now i’m probably going to need a new foundation for the next four months -_-

anyway, other than the whole becoming-so-dark-my-eyes-and-teeth-glow, i’m so happy! summer is my absolute favourite and this summer is going to be (and it already has been) a super super special summer! 

why? well it’s my very best friend’s wedding this year! and the events have already begun! this past saturday was the dholki and it was so super fun! i met her at the salon where she got a haircut and style earlier that day and from then i stayed with her (mostly being useless :p but whatever i had fun) until the dholki! 

and at the dholki there was sooo much singing and dancing and food and fun stuff! i had such a great time! and of course the bride-to-be looked gorgeous (but that’s a given :p) 

anyway the next big thing is really the wedding itself - which is after eid. it’s hard to believe there’s going to be a full month of ramzan and this month before the wedding! but as much as i want it to come and watch her get married and start her life, i also want time to stretch on and on and on. that’s just for my own selfish reason….i’m not a child. i know things won’t be the same anymore after she gets married. of course, we’ll still remain friends, but i know her husband and her new life will take so much of her time that i’m afraid eventually she’ll get too busy! 

but i’ll always be happy for her. no matter where in life she goes, i’ll always be happy for her and there for her if she needs me to be. 

and now before i start crying, i’m going to move on. 

so the day after the dholki, i had planned a pool party with all my waterloo friends (roommates et al) and i would like to (think) say that it was a success! i had a great time and got sunburnt for the first time ever (right under my left eye on my cheek) which was fun :p

we played baseball and set up a volleyball net (but never ended up using it :p) and then went swimming and ate and played games! i’m so happy my friends were able to come and and i’m even happier they enjoyed themselves! 

so overall, this weekend has been kind of my favourite so far this year. if this is any indication for what the rest of the summer will be like….i cannot wait for things to get rolling! 

much love,

-komal

day before yesterday i found my old diaries that i used to keep from 2003-2006 (on and off). and i read my first one and literally i just started the first page with: 

hey dear diary

so my deepest darkest secret is that i like [insert name here]

LOL i laughed so hard! it was ridiculous. but oh my god i read the rest and it was a lot like that! i can’t believe some of the stuff i’ve written - not because it’s stellar writing or anything, but because of the way i used to be so clear and expressive! 

2003 - so i was 12 years old. and i just came out and wrote whatever i was feeling! there was no confusion in my tone, there was no will to hide behind anything. whatever i felt i wrote. and it was so blunt and refreshing! 

and some of the stuff i recorded in my diaries was about times that my family went through that were…tough, to say the least. and i couldn’t read through what i had written during that time period. because i re-called a lot of details and reading through them was like re-living those times. 

and…since it was so clearly, innocently written by a 12 year old, there was no subtlety, no slyness or anything, that i felt like as i was reading my diary, i went back to my 12 year old self. 

and now as a grown up (i guess)….the way i write now (in my blog, here, and any other place when i’m writing about myself) i consciously think over things i’m going to say over and over again. i mean, don’t get me wrong, i still have word vomit (quite often -_-) but that effort is new. that effort to choose my words carefully and to make myself sound a certain way….it wasn’t there before. 

and i think when we start cautiously talking like that - we start to lose our expression and confuse ourselves. because we’re saying one thing but we’re really feeling another. and i think most (if not all) grown ups do this. and…it’s a bit depressing to think about! because as a child, you can express exactly how you’re feeling very simply and you can trust the poeple around you to understand. 

so what changes as we grow up that makes us guard our words? feelings? thoughts? do we stop understanding how we are feeling? or worse….do we stop trusting that someone around us will be empathetic?

i guess that’s what they call “loss of innocence”…among other things. 

anyway, that’s all! 

happy may! (i know it’s late :p) 

much love

-komal